Thursday, November 01, 2007

Back in Time Tag

Selba tagged me quite a while ago and I only found out this week! So, here goes.

In short, I wish to go back to my early 20s when life was good.

Longer Version:

I wish to go back to my early 20s. I was at university, enjoying my studies, living on campus with Vanessa, the best roomie ever and han
ging out with Jason and Johnny, to whom I would entrust my life. They were part of my close, adventurous, fun, varied, cosmopolitan, caring group of friends (who are still there). We would go to the opera or the ballet downtown, or to the beach, or for pancakes at midnight. I was emotionally strong and intact, there for my friends, ready to listen to problems, a shoulder to cry on, a voice of comfort, the therapist-to-be. I was also funny and witty, and my father and I were like a stand-up routine.

Finally filling out after being underweight my whole life, I had my hair in its first short cut and was discovering fashion because clothes finally fit without alteration. I was stylish for the first time ever.

I wanted for nothing and had access to more funds than I could ever need. I had my own car and even spent 6 months driving my Dad's sporty car, which is when I properly learned to drive, to corner, to floor it, to feel the feedback of road under wheels, and the round sound it would make at optimum speed which felt like the sweet spot on a tennis
racquet.

I was making great grades, a committee chair in Program Council - used to run a coffee cart every Wednesday for the night students. I was President and Treasurer of our uni's chapter of Psi Chi (psychology honor society). I even worked part time in the psychology department and at the student volunteer office.

My parents were still together - they laughed and tea
sed, held hands, kissed in the kitchen; everyone who saw them wanted what they had. We lived in a big four bedroom house in the pine forest north of Houston, part of a close knit community, a beautiful hometown with its own ballets and symphonies, but also the summer home of the Houston Ballet, Grand Opera, and Symphony. Every summer we would go to concerts and festivals; every October to the Greek Festival or International Fest downtown - I had more culture there than I do here.

We had neighbours to share homebaked cookies with, or invite round to use the jacuzzi, floating a bowl of grapes back and forth, or I'd babysit their dogs; the type of neighbours you wave at as you pass, roll down your window or park and walk over for a chat while they wait for the school bus; BBQ on someone's driveway on National Neighbourho
od Night Out. Go to the grocery store for 5 minutes and end up taking an hour because you chat with everyone - friends and strangers.

We had a big front yard with roses and flowers for the hummingbirds. A big backyard that produced all manner of flower, herb, tropical fruit and vegetable - and hosted all manner of wildlife, some things we only saw once (like a flying squirrel). Plus I was always rescuing animals like the wren, the baby red cardinal, the wood pigeon, the newly hatched finch. My snuggly bunnies Lulu (the smart dog-cat-rabbit), Dapple (the soft shy velvet one) and Muffet (the white tailed spunky one) were still alive. We had a canary called Romeo who sang to break y
our heart, and a Society Finch called Lena who loved to watch TV.

Dad and I used to stand on the driveway at 3am watching meteor showers, and the silhouettes of the pine trees against the full moon.

I had the security of a stable home life and love, and that abundant confidence of the undergrad who knows the world is her oyster. I want that oyster back...


I tag (can sisters count as one? Ha!):

1. Um Naief & Jahooni
2. Lotus
3. Beanzzz & Zee

4. Nikki
5. Guyana Gyal

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Instructions:

Title: The Age That I Wish To Go Back To
Requirement: Write about the one age that you wish to go
back to and why?
Tag Mode: 5 bloggers
1st - You leave blog and post link and add to the list below.
2nd - Let the blogger you want to tag know they had been tagged by commenting in their blog.

The Age that they Wish to Go Back to:

Amidrin wish to go back to age 22 to correct back some mistakes in life.
Lemonjude wish to go back to age 6 to enjoy kid’s life.
Hui Sia wish to go back to age 16 to meet her first lover again.
Giddy Tiger wishes to go back to a childhood life with no worries in the world.
Rinnah wishes she could turn back time to the happiest days of her life.
Ehon doesn't wanna go anywhere.
Chen wanna go back to age 19 to take a different pathway in life.
Selba wishes to go back to the time where she could persuade her parents not to move to Indonesia.
Olivia wishes to go back to her early 20s when the world was her oyster.

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28 comments:

L B said...

Oysters are good.. *sigh* You did a pretty good case for an iPort trip..

Planethalder said...

I am nostaligic for the life you had when you were 20 - what a great life!

ML said...

Wow, that sounds like an AMAZING time in your life! I don't blame you for wanting it back.

Thanks for the tag!

Lotus Reads said...

Hi, Olivia

What a cool tag...thank you for picking me! I am going to have to think about this one a little.

I have to agree with planethalder, I am nostalgic for the life you had in your 20's (what a beautiful write-up) and the one you have now, especially all that travel and partying you get to do!!!

Lulwa said...

Reading this brought tears to my eyes... You had a great life, and mine was just as great too (minus the parents being together) once upon a time... I'm a student now, struggling with all sorts of things, and wondering when it'll all be over...

I've been reading your blog for a while, and I must stress how much I enjoy it! Please keep updating! :)

Beenzzz said...

It does sounds awesome! Thank you for the tag. I'd probably want to go back to my mid teens. :) I'll have to do this one.

Olivia said...

LB - do you have an iPort I can borrow?

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Planethalder - wow. Thanks! One day I will have that well-rounded life back, yes.

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ML - It was the best alright. Looking forward to reading yours.

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Lotus - I really felt it when I wrote it, but right now it's all so boring...

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Lulwa - thank you so much for commenting. I thought it was hard being a student, but unless you've had a tough upbringing, nothing can prepare you for the real world.

I never want to quit blogging, and thanks for the encouragement.

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Beenzzz - you rarely hear of people who want to return to their teens, it's such a challenging time. Look forward to reading about it.

AmitL said...

Hi,Olivia..reading this,I can really understand why you want to go back to your early 20s...but,then,life just isn't about being happy at all times,I guess...Sigh!*goes into his own memory shell*..TC.

mark (ccl) said...

I'm not sure I would want to go back in time. I feel that even the difficult times (and like most my age, I've had a few) are there for a purpose, and you learn from the bad times. Anyway, I hope you're settling down to London life again - hey, just had an idea. Why not have a get together for some of your fellow bloggers (I know many live too far away to make it) in London one Saturday afternoon?

The Moody Minstrel said...

I agree with Mark. I was tagged, as well, but I can't think of a time in my life I'd want to return to. There were many times when I jumped left when I should have jumped right and wound up falling in a ditch, but what I found in that ditch often had a major impact on my direction in life.

To quote Captain Kirk: "I NEED MY PAIN!" (One of few lines from the movie Star Trek V that are worth remembering.)

Olivia said...

Amit - true, and I've been through a few things, haven't we all?

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Mark - welcome and thanks for your comment. There hasn't been a blogger meetup for a while now.

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Minstrel - well, you have a highly active and fulfilling life, a family, and even kids.
On the other hand, and you well know this, I've reached a definite impasse and am so stuck that I need to look backwards to remember I actually once had a life, and to decide how to regain some of that fulfillment.

Flighty said...

Arty hello! Just to say that I do stop by here regularly to read your always excellent entries even if I rarely comment on them.
Enjoy the rest of the weekend. Take care. xx

Leigh Russell said...

I loved your trip down memory lane. It sounds idyllic. Would it be the same at any age, do you think, or is there something about being 20, having an adult's freedom of action + the childhood freedom from responsibility that made it so special? I've grown happier as I've aged so personally I wouldn't want to go back, unless I was allowed to change some of my many mistakes!

Olivia said...

Flighty - thanks for letting me know you're still there! xx
P.S. Hope you made good use of the sunshine on Sunday.

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Leigh Russell - welcome, and thank you for your comment. For me, I think it is a combination of both - the innocent days of university, with, just as you say, an adult's freedom of action, but a child's freedom from responsibility.

But as you can see, my life was intact then. I have been through a lot, and life since moving to the UK has been one step forward, two steps back. A few months ago, however, it stalled altogether! If positive things happen soon, I will be launched back into that happiness of which you speak.

nikkipolani said...

I'm drafting something, Liv, thanks for the tag :-)
And for your many well wishes for dear Nik. She's perking up more and more now that her people aren't so mopey!

Olivia said...

Nikki - look forward to reading the tag.
Nik and "her people" hehe!

Um Naief said...

oh gosh... this one is a good one....

now, finding a year.

give me a few days to think about this. i'll let you know when i'm done. and who knows, maybe it'll be tomorrow... :)

hey... i haven't read way down on your blog yet, but how did the job interview go?

Um Naief said...

this post touched my heart. i read it after making my first post here.

that pine area north of houston is beautiful. my boss used to take his family around that area for vacations.

your love for animals is wonderful. altho many prob wouldn't, i'd love, one day, to hear about all the wild birds. texas has some of the best bird species.

there's something that can never be replaced when life changes and your parents are no longer together. even when it's a step parent. when that family unit splits.... it does something and there's always a little hole that wants to be filled again.

Olivia said...

I kind of thought you might be one of the people who didn't want to go back in time, but I'm looking forward (haha) to reading yours.

The job - no go, but thanks for remembering. They said they liked me and I was a strong candidate but they took someone more suited to the role (what, a role that was ok taking someone with no admin experience? I saw the job announcement and you couldn't do that job if you didn't know admin. As for the Europe liaison aspect, maybe they wanted my French to be fluent rather than rusty. Or maybe they wanted me to have more posh hobbies, or didn't like that I went blank when they asked what my strengths were...Although when they asked what I think someone needs to bring to a job like this, I think I described it well.

Oh well. Next...

Olivia said...

I could see from my Yahoo pinging that you were commenting as I was replying!

Did your boss go to Lake Conroe?
It's called Houston's playground, although Galveston is closer...

Thanks for the idea about the birds and wildlife. I'd love to describe the neat things I saw. :)
Keep your eyes peeled.

Memoria said...

Wow, it hurts to know I was not explicitly mentioned as part of your good life...but that is okay. I remember you during those times, which makes it hard for me to see how life has changed and disheartened you so much these past few years. I love you, Olivia!

Olivia said...

Memoria, I love you too! Please don't be hurt that I didn't name you - I didn't mention Gigi either, and I've known her for 17 years. I included Vanessa and the boys because we lived and ate together every day during that time of my life. You're part of my "caring group of friends (who are still there)".

Selba said...

Thanks a lot of doing this tag! It's really great to know you more about your life in the early 20s.

Sounds that you really had a wonderful and perfect one. It's good that at least you've experienced it once and hopefuly it will happen again in the future :)

Um Naief said...

going back in time... you are right, not my thing, and don't have the best of memories, to be honest. i've been racking my brain trying to think of a time that would be considered fun... but still having a tough time. i'm gonna reread the requirements and see if i misread....

isn't it sad when your childhood was sad?!! that's why i love the memories from now and from the last several years. they make up for all that was lost so many years ago.

no, the place my boss used to go wasn't either of those. it was a rolling hills place... now that i'm thinking about it... maybe it was closer to austin... can't remember now. i swear... sometimes i worry that i'm getting alzheimers (sp?!).

Anonymous said...

ah, those were the days!!! Life was good and easy!!!
Miss you, girl.
love,
Vanessa

lunaliar said...

Liv, I gots to tell you, you're making me homesick! I miss Houston and Conroe! Both real jewels here in Texas. I don't know if I told you, but my father went to St. Thomas, too! I used to go there for lectures when I was in Biology club and AcDec in High School.

Though you didn't tag me (and I know why, I've been sporadic with my posts lately) I think I might do this one.

Olivia said...

Selba - yes, I do feel I can have this quality again one day.

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Um Naief - yep, you spelled Alzheimer's correctly. Let's see. Rolling hills - Brenham, near Austin, is where there are lots of rolling hills...and the Bluebell ice cream factory!

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Vanessa - and yet each year that passes I only appreciate you more!
Love you too!
bisous

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Luna - yea girl, how can you leave Houston for Dallas? Huh? You craaazy! (to steal a line from 'The Beautiful and the Damned')

No, I know you lived in The Woodlands once, but I didn't know you also had ties to UST. Small small world.

I hope you do the post - I thought you'd quit blogging - it will be interesting to read, I am sure.

Um Naief said...

i wanted to let you know that i did the tag. i didn't go back in time and didn't add a lot of info, but... sometimes that's the best way to keep it, i think.

now w/ regards to houston/austin... he and his family would go there and stay at the marriott or one of the nicer hotels down in this area... matter of fact, our whole office, the big wigs, would go there for retreats... and for the life of me, i can't remember the name or area!!! maybe you'll help to induce those little creatures inside my brain! ;)