Well, for the past few days I've been feeling invisible.
What people say (words) - or do not say (silence) - is draining my self-confidence.
You all know I don't like to burden you with anything, so I apologise. I've just deleted half of the rant I had written...
But I miss the Olivia that I was at the beginning of the summer, before I left my internship.
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I now wish I could delete the entire top section, but I also value honesty.
I Need:
0. A Job
1. To see all the friends I miss
2. A good old fashioned belly laugh
3. To get down everything that's up in the air
I Need:
0. A Job
1. To see all the friends I miss
2. A good old fashioned belly laugh
3. To get down everything that's up in the air
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I promise I didn't plan this, but I've reached the page in my poem book that fits today's mood. (After this, I only have 3 left!)
It was written in 1998, after a few years of unrequited love...
It was written in 1998, after a few years of unrequited love...
You shine like a star,
but distance dims the light.
You offer me words,
but I cannot see your face.
I listen to your voice,
but I cannot hear your heart.
I reach for your hand,
but I find it withdrawn.
So I watch and I wait and I wish...
That I might bask in the glow of your love,
Gaze into the depths of your eyes,
Feel the warmth of your heart
And place my hand in yours.
So I watch and I wait and I wonder...
When will that day come?
but distance dims the light.
You offer me words,
but I cannot see your face.
I listen to your voice,
but I cannot hear your heart.
I reach for your hand,
but I find it withdrawn.
So I watch and I wait and I wish...
That I might bask in the glow of your love,
Gaze into the depths of your eyes,
Feel the warmth of your heart
And place my hand in yours.
So I watch and I wait and I wonder...
When will that day come?
7 comments:
hey are you okay? don't tell me you are sad too. what can i do to help?
moonglow
Wow, this is very sad. I didn't know you lost a muse. And how are you different from this summer?
About the last post, I thought you'd like to know that I saw Supergrass live. They opened for Radiohead and I got to be right up front against the stage. Great show. I could have almost reached out and touched the singer and bass player. That was at the Woodlands Pavillion.
I hope you feel better soon! See you later - j.
Moonglow - thanks for being here; I'm glad you're back, and I just value your friendship ;)
Jason - I guess you never saw me feeling down at UST. Not my usual bubbly self, that's all.
Radiohead and Supergrass at the Pavilion? I miss that place.
Don't forget to send those NASA pics.
((((((((Olivia))))))))) Here's a hug for you my friend. I'm wishing you everything on your list and a whole lot more :) Your friend - Hopalong C
Caesura - *thank you*
oh Olivia, I pray this sadness will pass by quickly. And here is another hug:
(((((((olivia)))))))))))
(caesura, I hope you don't mind I borrowed your idea).
Vanessa
Thank you V - hopefully a real hug next month!!! Just don't cut off my air supply.
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