Friday, August 26, 2005

Stardust Melody

In a day of extremes:
I got a job and signed a contract - I lost a wonderful guy and cried a river.
A summer full of promise...the best one so far. I thank him for that.

"And now the purple dusk of twilight time steals across the meadows of my heart..." so little Olivia has to learn to erase a hundred associations imprinted in her deep soul.

violet petals, sugared blackberries, green olives...

The Tears...the ghost of you, your imperfections, beautiful pain...and flying to the moon...

sparkling pink diamonds, wrinkled pink shirt, little blue car...

a gentle voice, a warm heart, a pair of blue eyes...

Sometimes I wonder why I spend
The lonely nights dreaming of a song.
The melody haunts my reverie,
And I am once again with you...

16 comments:

Jia Li said...

is it the reseach job? That will be soo cool! If it is what I think it is...I think it is what I think it is...but u should tell me what it is so I can know that it is what I think it is.

Olivia said...

Are you trying to make me laugh? Because you've succeeded.
It is the research job...I forgot I told you about it after I applied.

james said...

'Cos breaking up is so very hard to do...

GuineaPigPower said...

Yes, Olivia. The job! Focus on the job!!

And chocolate.

Oh, wow, yeah.....the associations.

That's the worst part. So much sadness over so much happiness which was and is no more.

I am so sorry.

Olivia said...

Awww how sweet of you 20Sixers and Motimers to visit me out here as well. I really appreciate that.

So - thanks James, 'tis true. (Cool, New Malden has found my Blogspot. Different isn't it?)

And GPP - I very much like that last quote of yours.

Caesura said...

The beautiful thing about associations is they are what we make of them. They don’t always require eradication. From violet pedals to little blue cars, everything has a million purposes. Some may be to remind you, but I promise you, their associations are flexible. As, difficult as that may seem to grasp right now, I am living proof of the power love has to change one’s associations. So free them of any pain, let them be available to accept new beauty in your life. There is so much more in store for you dear friend, and every memory is precious, but not so much as each new possibility.

Olivia said...

Ah, Caesura - thank you. This is again working on the principle of creating beauty out of pain.

Anonymous said...

Wow, what a mixure of feelings.......sadness and happiness!!! Strange to feel both at the same time!!! Congrats on the job and I am sorry to hear you heart broken. I know it is not easy but there will be others. You are a strong and beautiful person.
vanessa

Anonymous said...

congrats on the job! wow that is terrific! you have had a lot going on lately! and it will take some time but hearts do mend. and you have such a good one. it will all be okay.

ms. moonglow

Lasto-adri *Blue* said...

o oli.. i love this post.. i am already falling in love with it..

Sometimes I wonder why I spend
The lonely nights dreaming of a song.
The melody haunts my reverie,
And I am once again with you...

don't be that sad dear... life comes and goes..
one day up and 10 down.. thats how you'll love your ups more.. :)

focuse on ur jop now.. and dont eat too much chocolate.. its not good for you

and by the way.. i dont think i know what jia li is thinking of.. but if i think i knew one day that what i think, i think is true.. i'd surely ask you to know :)

hugs

Jia Li said...

cool! I was right

The Closet Grandmaster said...

Look, this blog is sometimes a bit too cheesy for me, but it is always fascinating. that's why I read it.

Research in what?

Olivia said...

Blue - Glad you like the post. I am going out a lot this weekend so the tag is going slowly.

Closet Grandmaster - I had no idea you were a regular. It's nice to know I am fascinating.
BUT we are mostly girls here, so you have to allow us some room for sentiment.

Alter Ego said...

Congratulations on the contract, darling and my regret at the ending of a relationship. Olivia, in your sadness you have written a powerful piece. There is beauty even in that...

Olivia said...

Thank you, Alohalani.
My six-word novel: I will reach beauty through pain.

Anonymous said...

well expressed.
vanessa